Friday, September 19, 2008

Sleep

One of my greatest talents has always been the ability to sleep. Any time, any place, I could sleep. From high school on, I have taken naps, almost every day. And Sunday naps are a major ritual-just ask my kids!

I am sad to announce that this great talent is declining as my age is rising. I can't sleep. And it is driving me bonkers. I woke up this morning at 3:00 wide awake and never went back to sleep before I had to go to work at 6:30. I came home at 1:00 completely exhausted and have not been able to really fall asleep for a nap. Lately when I go to sleep, it is not uncommon for me to toss and turn and have major trouble falling asleep for a couple of hours. The week I work this problem plays havoc on how I feel and my mental alertness. I feel like I've got jet lag half the time. My work week is the worst because I start playing games with myself like, "you've got to get to sleep, you only have 5 more hours of sleep, etc" And then I start thinking of kids, grandkids, work, and trips and it goes round and round. I'm going insane! Ambien helps but I will only let myself use that once or twice a week. My new plan is to have an I don't care attitude about sleep. If I can't sleep, I'll get up and read or watch a movie until I can. I'm going to quit obssessing about it. (Well right after I finish this blog). But if you have great ideas about sleeping better , pass them on. I miss my talent.

P.S. My back is almost back to normal and I'm not sure what did the trick.

4 comments:

Lindsey said...

It is so frustrating when you can't sleep! Luckily I am tired from getting up with Oliver in the middle of the night, so I can sleep just fine otherwise! you are/were the best sleeper I knew.

Kasey said...

Poor you! I have been having the same problem lately. But for me it's the kids, pregnancy, etc.
Maybe if you stay in one place long enough you'll be able to get back to your old sleeping habits! But, you know we all love you to come visit, so maybe that won't be possible.

Good luck! If I'm having a hard time falling asleep at night, I take a children's dose of Benadryl and sleep like a baby!

Alex said...

thats rough pammy. nothing much worse than being dead tired and not being able to fall asleep. i think you are right thouh....if you can stop thinking about it so much you will probably be able to sleep.

Jami said...

glad your back is better, but too bad about not sleeping. That sounds like torture...actually having the time to sleep with no interruptions and not being able to. Horrible.